Sunday, October 13, 2013

Life in Russia #1

It's been 2 weeks since I left Indonesia and moved to Russia. One of the biggest dreams come true? Yea, can say so. I've always dreamed about taking my master in Russia, even though I never dreamed to live in this city I'm living in today (Astrakhan). But still, I feel so grateful for everything I have today, for this opportunity God has given me; I feel so blessed.

Just about a month before I left, I spent the end of the summer with my partner. After over a year apart, he came back and decided to spend his first two weeks with me in Jogja; it was quite an amazing two weeks in my life. Have known each other for two years; you should know that I've never met anyone quite like you either. To see you and what you're doing is like seeing myself in another version of me; I never thought you would come back to Indonesia, and even better now for work, that was incredible cause you do what you always said you would do. I mean it this time; I am so proud of you, I've never been this proud of my boyfriend, but you always have made me feel so proud Mas.
You both inspired and challenged me to be better, always. I know I've said enough about how horrible you are and how much I hate you, but despite all of those unpleasant facts about you, I don't think I will ever be able to say enough thank you for your sincere words that you trust me, always, you always say that you do and you should know how much it means to me to know that you-trust-me that I can do and be whatever it is that I said I would do. And to always say that I'm doing an amazing thing -when I know that what I do is nothing compares to you- I can honestly say; I have plenty of reasons to love you very much too, and you know I will always do, always.

"A love that asks for nothing and gives nothing in return; it is simply there. I will never be yours, and you will never be mine; nevertheless, I can honestly say: I love you, I love you, I love you."


Thank you :')